sobota, 11 sierpnia 2018

11/08/2018

it’s days like this

it’s days like this. 
it’s days like this, when you just lose it. 
it’s days like this, when everything falls apart. 
it’s days like this, you just wish you were never born. 
it’s days like this, you realise how little it takes to completely ruin everything you’ve worked so hard on. 
it’s days like this, you suddenly forget all the progress you did. 
it’s days like this, you just want to go back to all your bad habits. 
the truth is: you never grow out of something. 
once an addict, always an addict. 
it’s always going to be a part of you. forever. 
as much as you don’t want it to be, it is. 
no matter how hard you work on it, when the trigger is pulled, you lose it. 
it happened again. all the thoughts are back. it’s so hard to not do the things my mind tells me to do. it shouldn’t ever happen. but it does. 
you’re so much stronger than that. don’t cry. 
but it just goes. it runs down your face. in the most unexpected moment. even tho you didn’t want it. 
it will always be a part of you. no matter how hard you don’t want it to be. 
it’s days like this, you realise you aren’t strong at all. it’s days like this, you realise how week you actually are. 

it’s days like this, when you wish it was all over. 

kt